There usually comes a time in a person's life when the "old way" isn't working anymore (and the "old way" may include the relationship you're in, your job, a few of your friendships, and your way of being in the world), and the "new way" isn't clear yet. This is sometimes referred to as "The Dark Night of the Soul". Basically, your inner compass is re-calibrating itself so it's in alignment with your heart, which is filled with intuition and knowledge of what's true for you, and not your mind, which is so full of "shoulds" and indecision. It's almost always a tumultuous, confusing and lonely ride as the shore behind you disappears, and the shore in front of you can't yet be seen. If possible, try to trust that you are right where you need to be EVEN if everything seems awful and hopeless right now, and that the storm will pass. Pain is a natural part of any growth process, and your struggle is there to help you crack open your true self. There's a world of love inside you, and that's the world you're sailing towards. If you throw up over the deck a few times on the way, it's well worth it
~ Namaste
